I like crazy girls. I find myself slightly attracted to the pscho/stalker chick... Is that strange or what? I think its because I myself am a little nuts. And I enjoy a little craziness in my life. Im not talkin the stab you in your sleep, follow you everywhere, bite your dick off chick. Hell no. But a girl who's a little strange misunderstood and quite. Yep I think thats the girl for me. Oh yeah and she has to be a Scott. and red headed. Lol. Any way I have a few theories Id like to put to paper as it were. I think every one is a little crazy deep down. I think every now and then a bit of our primal selves manifests its self in our everyday lives once in a while. I think we all are a little strange. I think Im giving up denying it.... or maybe I'll keep the charade going... who knows.. Another theory. Men since the beginning whether you be a creationist or evolutionist Men have been the defenders, the fighters, the warriors. We as a race we're and arguably are animalistic. To put a man in a cubical is like putting a lion in a cage. I think men still have the urge to go out and pillage and destroy. But society has controlled us our world has controlled us. I recently had a friend contact me about a break down. He is 25 years old and a manager with some wireless manufacturing company. Cisco maybe? Anyway he professed to me the hopelessness in his heart. He told me he has no place to go. The best he can ever hope to achieve is some position just a little higher than hes in now. My advice to him was join the army as Infantry, get the killing and crying and blood and guts and sucking and dyeing out of his system and then go back to his dead end job. I think itll help to get it out of his system. I know I would be perfectly satisfied to flip burgers the rest of my life. (If i wasn't going to open that clinic in south america.) Any way I think guys should do something "Manly" before they try and settle down. something like construction or military or whatever it is they need to do to feel like a man. That way when theyre done they can settle down with a nice wife and house and shitty job and have nothing to regret or wish for. Because the truth is this "Man work" fucking sucks. Well thats about it for today. Thanks for all the neat comments. I love you guys. And I leave in 12hrs for home.
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Doc.

I have no clue... I really dont. I consider myself an Entrepreneur, I want to be my own boss, I want to do something hard but make good money at it. I looked into maybe becoming a defense contractor medic to help pay my way through med school. But I would need 3yrs combat service to get into blackwater. And im sure as hell not reenlisting for another shitty deployment. I know I want to be a Doctor. I think its my calling. But I dont think America is going to be a good place to be 8-10 yrs from now. So im cooking up a scheme to open up clinics in a developing 3rd world country. I be doing what I was made to do, as my own boss with a chance for big payouts. Heres the gig. first scout out the country for said clinics. I.E missions trips/vacations. Apply for Gov aid from local country. Spread the word of  free clinics to missions org all over the world (so they can send volunteers to work for me for a short period of time.. just to help get it started.) Doctors without borders is an organization that supplies small clinics with medical supplies. once I have a couple free clinics going. (that treat minor things and give out vacines.) I start a small hospital with government Approval and can begin charging for more major problems. Thus beginning to make money. Eventually open a really sweet medical school in said country with scholarships for the local populace. opening the school and the hospital up for Gov funding. Yeah I have it all planned out. Im not going to be very rich.. but Im pretty easy to satisfy.. I think it will work. Now I just need the country and a few crazy folks to throw in with me.
Anyway... Im probobly going to just end up some poor collage drop out... but a guy can dream cant he? and besides Without dreams what are we?
_Doc